the things I should have said
everybody dies alone
Monday, October 28, 2024
the unconscious mind
Thursday, October 24, 2024
the things that have happened to me will never have not happened.
Wednesday, October 23, 2024
cravings.
Friday, May 12, 2023
i know, you know, we know, we werent meant for each other and its fine.
so now youre just waiting.
waiting on the impossible to happen.
waiting for them to change.
waiting for them to notice
the love youre giving them
it hurts like hell when you know
that you have to let go of
the person you spent so long trying to love
but maybe thats the point.
love should be easy, and kind.
empathetic and loyal.
it doesnt need to be forced
or strained
because love is the easiest and best thing we do.
and if its not easy, then its not for you.
and thats ok.
Saturday, February 4, 2023
fucking here again
can you believe it
we are fucking here again
heartbroken
gaslit
broken
by a person who never deserved me anyway but spent everyday reminding me that i was the lucky one
broken
again
and wishing i was fucking dead.
it will never get easier and i will never learn
i kill myself for these people that dont even deserve a foot note.
i kill myself for these people who just dont give a fuck
im not sure what ive done to deserve this
and i dont know what to do
so i just sit here
broken
wishing i was dead.
Sunday, January 23, 2022
If you could go back in time with all the information you have today, would you?
would you go back in time, and tell him you loved him
hold out for the right moment instead for running towards the next one
would you put your head on his shoulder in the middle of the movie, lift the arm rest and cuddle into his arms
would you stop fiddling with your keys at the edge of your open car door and step towards him and kiss him
would you hold his hand at the top of the megadrop and swear you'll never let go
would you tell him all the reasons you love him as you lay under the stars on new years eve
look into his eyes while fireworks exploded in the night sky
would you go back, and get it right
or would you just find new ways to fuck up your life?
we were a perfect fit. we were. but timing is a hell of a thing
and our egos are another
too scared to start
too proud to make moves
too set in our ways to compromise
and too damn stupid to get out of our own ways
you wanted a ride or die
well its been 21 years. no one is more ride or die than me
but im grateful i never got what i wanted
because i was too stupid to realise that i deserve better