not alone, but very lonely

i feel so alone
the emptiness seems magnified by the voices in my head
they scream and thrash and are echoing in the corners of my mind
inaudible and frantic
it turns to white noise
i guess they make me feel less alone
but not less lonely

i feel like no one is in my corner
that i chose this struggle
this is the struggle i chose
and I've made my choice
it just was misinformed
but its too late to go back now

i wonder what it feels like to have someone back your dreams
realise and recognise the commitment
pat you on the back
and tell you they're proud
and realise the weight of the world
that its heavy on your shoulders

i never wanted someone to carry this burden
this burden is mine and mine alone
its mine to carry through life

but i wonder what it would feel like for someone to lift one corner
lighten the load
my muscles are weary and my heart is barely beating

i wonder what it feels like to have someone support your dreams.