that pause

that hesitation

right before the first taste

you took a breath and lingered 

the build up to a moment 

a moment we've been waiting years for

time stopped

the world stopped

the shadows on your face

the heat on your body

the sound of you drawing breath

the sweet scent of madness and misery

my heart beat in my ears

my fingers tracing lines

as we wait

taking in the moment for all its beauty and horror, its fantasy and fiction. 

ill live in that moment for the rest of my life.

we only got one moment

and never again another

so i close my eyes and the moment dances from my eyelids, and lands on my lips

the taste of you at war with the taste of my betrayal

i would have torn down the entire world for you