it took me a second to remember where i had fallen asleep.
my eyes were burning and blurry from the light filtering through my blinds and my body felt like its been up all night. My mind was restless fighting to determine what was reality and what was a dream. I rolled over in my empty bed. I rubbed my eyes to no avail while i looked at my watch which sat delicately on top of the books i was reading before i went to sleep. Its gotta be before 7, i thought to myself. the clock read 8.42am and i was surprised at the extent of my sleep in compared to the level of fatigue cursing through my veins. i rolled back over and closed my eyes. searching the corners of my mind for the last dream that encompassed this place. My brain struggled as i remembered segments of my dreams which i tried - too hard - to place together. i closed my eyes tighter trying to fall asleep again in hopes of finishing off my dream. i laid there, motionless in my bed, for a good half an hour before i deemed the attempt useless and rolled onto my back. i let my eyes wonder, tracing the shadows the sun drew on my celling as i tried to imagine how the rest of that dream would go. In my dream, i found you. and that you wanted me too. i remembered your crooked smile that wrinkled at your eyes, your bed hair coupled with your perfect features. i tried to imagine the ending to my dream, to place you and me together.
forever.
but even my imagination couldnt give me what i was searching for.
I closed my eyes, hard, trying to picture our happily ever after. But i guess its so unrealistic and even in my wildest dreams,
we dont end up together.
