Friday, August 27, 2010

digression

i'm like that stupid little kid whose mum denies her something so she wants it oh so much more.
but in this case i denied myself it.
what was i thinking? well..
i thought it would be easier, i thought it would be better, i thought i could.
i was wrong
again
as per usual

nothing new here
my biggest enemy is me
im the only one stupid enough to get in my way

and the shit part of it is. you are at the top of the "least important parts of my life" list..
at least.. you should be
and ill sit here and think and dream and wonder.  but what does it matter when your not wasting a single second of your insignificant little life on me.
and you wanna know what the worst part is?
the worst part is,

 im stupid enough to still care.
at

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