i actually hate myself so much
i dont know why i do some of the things i do
i do nothing but let myself down time after time after time
&& i dont know why i do it
what am i waiting for
someone to do everything for me
im so lazy and needy and its starting to piss me the fuck off.
its no ones fault but my own and it makes me soooo angry.
and once again, ive let myself down.
shut up and grow the fuck up. like really.
