pathetic.
thats the word i have been looking for this whole time.
not amazing, not genuine, not perfect. but in fact pathetic.
because thats what you are and thats what you've made this and i have no words for your behaviour but pathetic.
and you actually wonder why its never worked
and you actually blame me
but its you, and maybe it was you the whole time and i just took the blame to preserve the very thought of you and to pretend like you weren't, but you are pathetic.
like you've been from the start.
and the worst thing is, your pathetic-ness is contagious.
and you've rubbed off on me.
I'm just as pathetic as you
because its pathetic to waste so much time on a certain person only to have them prove that they weren't even worth a second of it.
you can't treat people like shit and expect them to love you
