If I could have back all the time I wasted 

I'd probably just waste it on you again

Can't quite let you go

Hell is

Loving you in my sleep

And waking up alone

When I cant sleep at night 

I stare at the empty side of my bed, 

 and wonder about the things I would tell you,

 if you were laying next to me

my biggest fear is that one day you'll will see me the way i see myself

and maybe you already do

i broke my own heart loving you

loving you was like a freezing winters morning. 

peaceful dew resting so delicately on every surface while the cold air is breathless in our lungs and somehow so utterly perfect and refreshingly obvious.  we'd walk through the grass and our footsteps would follow us where ever we'd go as we watch the air leave our lungs in a haze that fogs up all the words we could never say to each other.  The sun would bless the skin on our faces for a while as our body screams for warmth but loves the comfort of our layers.  We'd smile and laugh and envelope ourselves in our love that was all the warmth we needed.  But you'd soon leave, and i'd enjoy the memories and the moments.  But the longer your gone the colder i feel and my body is shivering and my lungs are barely breathing while the cool air on my skin leaves me feeling alone and worthless.  

Without your warmth, the cold takes over.  

I know ill die here soon.

the key to happiness is letting each situation be what it is, instead of what i think it should be.

I just want someone who won’t get annoyed when I text them six times a day. 

Someone I can go on long drives with and can sing along to the radio with. 

Someone I can eat pizza with at 2am and kiss at 6pm. 

Someone who texts me stupid things to let me know i'm on his mind.

Someone who challenges my way of thinking.

Someone who pushes me to better myself.

Someone who loves me because of my flaws.

Someone who makes me laugh and kisses away my tears.

Someone who chooses me every day and never thinks twice about it.

anyone else but you

look around you,
and look inside you.
how many people do you think are settling?
i will tell you: a hell of a lot.
people are settling everyday to okay relationships,
and okay jobs,
and an okay life.
and do you know why?
BECAUSE OKAY IS COMFORTABLE.
okay pays the bills,
and gives a warm bed at night.
But do you know whats okay is not?
Okay is not thrilling,
it isn't passion,
it isn't the reason you get up everyday;
it isn't life changing or unforgettable.
Okay is not the reason you go to bed late or wake up early.
Okay isn't the reason you risk absolutely everything you've got for just the smallest chance that something absolutely amazing could happen.
Okay isn't YOU.