Ive been thinking for the last week about the IDEA of love.
the idea of you

and wondering if you could ever live up to the you i have created in the corners of my mind.

i have this idea in my head
about what it should be
and what you should be.

sometime i think you could never be him.
the person you are in my mind
and the past hasn't done you any favours as you've always fallen short.
but something is new. changed. different.

it's like, maybe you are the guy i write about in this blog
maybe you could be
maybe we are perfect for each other in a typical sort of way.

I try to imagine us
5 years down the track
giving us a go but failing.
could i see us arguing?
hating each other?
and fall out of love?

but i already feel like i love you way too much to let that happen
i already feel like i would fight to the death for you

i love you in a way that is unbounded and unchained. a love that runs wild and free and not the way people mistake lust for love. how many second chances have we already given each other and still can't shake this. how many issues have we had, treated each other like shit and still come back for more.


Love it may hurt and it might not work


but with you, it could.

i wish it would.