Monday, October 26, 2015

i am constantly surprised by the longing for you that never quiets.

i keep hoping that one day i will wake up
and not miss you anymore
that my dreams won't revolve around you and that your name wouldn't be the first thing on my mind each morning
but i guess the point is
it really doesn't matter how much you try to protect yourself your going to get hurt anyway
i tried to protect myself from you
only to find out regret hurts more than failure ever could
you were always going to tear my heart out from the moment you said hello
instead I'm hurting over a missed opportunity instead of a mismatched love
forever dreaming of what its like to have our lips on mine
instead of having memories to suffocate in,
I'm drowning in the what if's.

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