and im scared
and its even scarier to think that your the reason i am scared.
im scared because hes not you
and he never will be
im scared that ill always be waiting for you
for us
for an us thats never been
and never will be
that one day ill wake up and youll be my first thought and my last breath
and ive condemned myself to a life without you or us or this
but thats not my future
its not my reality
and its not fair to be stuck in limbo
holding, wishing, sitting, waiting, hoping
for something that never was
never is
and never could be
but here i am
sitting
wishing
waiting
believing in a fairytale thats is inconceivable
unachievable
false.
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the sound of my bag is loud as i place it on the floor the chair legs scream as i drag it out from under the table if you would only look ...
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so this is my question. if its not real, if its just an idea && if its not even remotely realistic then why does it feel ...
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i dont know why we have been at war for so long. i wish i could find a way to love you. when you were little people would tell me that your ...
