Monday, October 28, 2024

the unconscious mind

I go bed most nights
Reliving the moments we've had 
You're the last thought before I sleep
Hoping I dream a new moment with you
Something fresh and new that I can hold on to
But when I do dream of us
I dream of the reality of you
Reliving the heartbreak and rejection
The moments I want to forget
The things I never said
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Thursday, October 24, 2024

the things that have happened to me will never have not happened.

The choice I've made can't be undone
Taken back
Fixed

All I have now is hope
And hope is a dangerous thing
Hope is going to kill me
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Wednesday, October 23, 2024

cravings.

How the actual fuck. 
How am I still here?
Why am I still here?

You haunt me
You always have
You always will

I thought if we had our time then I could let you go

Why can't I let you go

I thought if we had our time than that would be enough.
But I want more.
I'm addicted 

But I'm sober
Always in recovery 
Always wanting more
Never being able to get it

I'll always crave you
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