one day ill call you

the phone would ring and you'd see my name pop up and contemplate if you actually want to answer the phone.

maybe you will maybe you won't

you probably won't.

but if you do id tell you that I'm getting married

and id ask you if you were okay with it

and you'd lie

and id pretend not to notice

and the things left unsaid between us will be nothing more than a bad idea

and id pretend that this is what i wanted the whole time

id cut the conversation short

and you'd hear the dial tone

and realise why it was so important to me to tell you before anyone else knew

i wouldn't want you to be blind sighted

but in that moment you'd know

that I've loved you all along

and ill love you forever

but i won't wait forever